Every Day Is Mother's Day

My Mom, Mary Anne, 25 holding me with my brothers

My dear mother, Mary Anne Jakubowski, passed away in 2018. Since then, in pouring my grieving heart out to God, I’ve discovered this amazing truth. God has all the attributes of an awesome mother! Maybe that’s why the movie “The Shack” is one of my all-time favorites. It shows the character of “God” as a female mother-type.

Growing up, though I loved my Dad, I felt much more emotionally connected to Mom, perhaps because we were alike in many ways-- both introspective, creative, and reserved. We were very close and until my husband, whom I met in my forties, I considered her my best friend. Although if I’m honest, she did much more listening, giving, and supporting of me than I did of her. When I say that my whole universe shifted when she left this earth to go to heaven, I am not exaggerating. It still seems impossible that she’s ’unavailable’. Sometimes I’ll see someone that reminds me of her, and startled, I’ll want to reach out and hug her or talk with them, and sometimes do. I have the feeling like she' right there, I just can't see her. If I spend too much time dwelling on missing her or I’ll fall into a pit of despair. BUT, knowing she’s alive in heaven and living her best life IS my great consolation, and the rock of hope I rest on. Because I know she’s experiencing His love, and is flying around (she always dreamed of flying) with no disabilities, a healed, whole heart, smiling, laughing, and having the time of her life with her dad she never knew, her mom, my Dad and brother, and so many more. This reality is what I must focus on now, not just for survival, but because it IS the perfect and amazing truth.

The following scriptures resonate with me more deeply. Isaiah 66:13 says, “As a mother comforts her child, so will I comfort you.” The very God who gave Mom her delightful attributes possesses them Himself! Similarly, Isaiah 49:15 asks, “Can a mother forget the nursing child she has borne, or the love she has given to the child of her womb?” Though my earthly mother’s not here, my heavenly One is, and again offers way more motherly love and resources than I could ever return.

Mom was my biggest cheerleader, always encouraging and supporting, giving so generously, always happy to see me. Hers is always the first and most beautiful face I will ever know, with those eyes of love and her gentle, steadfast, consistent compassion, delightful sense of humor, and fierce protection. Mom went above and beyond to provide everything she could for me and my brothers. It’s amazing to realize that God not only possesses those same motherly qualities, but is the author and creator of that love that HE put in our mothers for us. And for those who didn’t have a loving mother, God who restores all things, can be that mother to you. With God, every day is Mother’s Day!

I also know, like me, she was a flawed and imperfect human being. How much more does God, who IS Love, display the deep, immaculate love and heart of a mother, the perfect Mom.

Let’s pray:
Dear Heavenly Father, Thank you that you also possess all the attributes of a loving motherl. Help me use my imagination to see you loving me like this. I ask you to help me overcome fears of approaching you, and see your love for me as unconditional and fierce. Your love for me is so much greater than I could ever reciprocate. What a fathomless gift! Thank you demonstrating your great love for me by giving your Son Jesus to bear the punishment for my in on the cross, so we are one now forever. Nothing can ever separate me from your love!  
(And if your Mom is in heaven…) Please give my Mom a big hug for me, tell her I love her and miss her, and can’t wait to see her again!! 

Mom and me about 30 years later, 1990s